Archive for July 8th, 2008
“I just dislike Craig now, OK?”
subtitle: in the war between desire and compromise
Slowly she turns, step by step, inch by inch…You know, I think I’m getting it. As I sit here typing, taking a quick break between rounds of getting her best friend’s laundry out of the dryer, cleaning out the fridge so we can “finally go to Eley’s now?”, getting ready to make the many phone calls of the day, including following up on the preparations for her next birthday party, which is the 20th of this month, which is now going to be at GC instead of Steak&Ale because “OK, $8000 is a lot of money for a party, even a party to celebrate the miracle!”, I think I’m finally getting it.
The war between desires of the flesh, the heart and the spirit. And reaching successful compromises.
If yer wondering why this isn’t one of the many many part two’s I talk about and never seem to get to, well, come over and I’ll put you to work. You’ll soon stop wondering and wished you written the dang things yerself. (grin)
The mind is a terrible place to live when it’s full of confusion, a lifetime of memories and only the mixed capabilities of an adult and a regressed childlike capacity to recall and act on those recollections. Sleep is a blessing, a quick response stops panic from building, a calm but not condescending tone reassures the child and allows the adult some assertion and presence.
“OK, Craig did say some smart things. Maybe he IS learning and growing. But not enough. Twin? When I see him again, can I tell him why I’m mad at him and then apologize?”
Sure thing sweety. Anything you want that I can provide. All you have to do is ask. God will answer.
The hard part to get across is that sometimes, the answer is no.
In the war between desire and compromise, “no” is the ultimate enemy. But sometimes it ends up providing comfort.
Don’t you think?
