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“if I only could, I’d make a deal with God”

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subtitle: let me steal this moment from you now

lost

“You lock me in the house and hide my keys. You won’t let me drive my own car. You’ve hidden my credit cards and checks and you won’t even let me spend my own money. You keep me a prisoner in my own house. I have to trust you. I don’t have a choice.”

Trust: 4. a person on whom or thing on which one relies. I don’t want your stuff. There is no satisfaction in possession. I don’t need your time. If it means so little to you to invest it, why would I? No, I want something far more valuable than that. All I want is what you value the most. What is that, by the way?

Over on Mars Hill Journey Ben Nockles quoted this: “You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you.” So, what is it that is most dear to you? Your salvation? Your Lord? Your children? Your spouse? Your wealth? Your power? Your influence? The list just goes on and on, doesn’t it?

Your faith? Is it worth anything to you?

I sometimes yell at my wife. I get so frightened and tired and angry and confused that I finally just break. I hate myself for it. Afterwards. Tomorrow she has the pins removed from her wrist. I will take her to it and bring her home afterwards. Back to her prison. Where I care for her. And sometimes yell at her.

Like any thief, all I have to gain to get what you have is your trust. I don’t really care what you value the most. I want what you have that I want the most. Your privilege to have your faith.

But I don’t trust God.

“twin? Do you believe in the miracle?”

Placebo – Running up that hill (embedding was disabled)

Imagine how much I trust you.

Written by jimmy paravane

July 15, 2008 at 11:35 pm

Posted in Transparency, personal

of men and mice.

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Subtitle: part 2 of mice and men

UnwantedHero14

Wow. Sometimes it feels like I waste way too much time criticizing. Oh well. I bet you thought I was gonna do a Close Encounters of the Alien Kind there for a minute. I seriously thought about it. But I needed to talk about The Unwanted Alien Guest today. Oh, and his wife that’s not much noticed. I bet you’re wondering about the SuperHero picture? Read on my friend. Read on. After the break. (grin)

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Written by jimmy paravane

July 15, 2008 at 12:19 pm