aliens among us

subtitle: following

So what next? Do I try to do this differently this time? Don’t I always? So why now? Bored? Scared? Anxious? Indifferent?

Please. Been there done those. Oh well. It seems to be the next step. I mean seriously, how many more times do I want to try and explain why I go to church, comment on Christian blogs, blog about Christians, use to think I was saved but don’t now?

All I do now is barely take care of myself and my wife, waste my spare time reading Science Fiction and playing World of Warcraft. When I’m not watching TV. This is life? This has purpose?

Too much Transparency? Too bad. This has to be about something else. This time. Pretty please.

Not alone. OK. That’ll work.

Subtitle: gimme a break. Yoda was just a hand-puppet, OK?

“semi-trolling for fame” I shut myself up with that one. Is that all my oh so self-appreciated, snarky, comments on all these alien blogs amounted to? Like a child jumping up and down shouting “look at me! see how smart I am? Look at me!”

Fine. But If I put childish things away, what does that leave me with now? Not much. I guess I could waste time playing the mother of all MMORPG’s. WoW. Hey, it’s fun, but not very filling.

So what now? And there goes that little voice saying once again, “if you are back at that place where you feel you have nothing to lose, why not give up?”

sigh

Again? What am I scare of? Becoming an alien that’s in some way not perfect? Could that be any worse than where I find myself now?

Fine. Let’s give this another try.